Live long enough, and you can turn everything around. Redeem the bad. That’s what I did. Experience is more than just what-happened-when, it’s what we make of it.
This is not just a cliché.
I went through a gruesome betrayal when I was seventeen – and of course it changed my life – but then everything changes us, including the good. My heart turned cold, but only for a little while, because I needed for it to be warm. I needed to love and be loved. So my heart warmed up again.
Yet it was a struggle to maintain trust, to keep the heart channel open to unconditional love. I won’t beat around the bush – it took years!
What worked for me was finding a reason why I might have drawn such an experience to me. I say this because it was the question I had to ask myself once I began taking responsibility for my life and everything that had occurred. I had to find a reason for why things might have happened the way that they did.
Okay, so it took me forty years. So what’s forty years? It’s just a number. The point is, I created a new story for myself out of the old. The facts remained the same, but I took my experience and transformed it into something that brought the light in. That brought my soul into play. That allowed me to come from the perspective of Soul Awareness. Soul Consciousness.
The soul has its reasons. All we have to do is live long enough, and keep asking questions.
Watercolor by NW 1990
Keep trusting that the answers will come.
Blessed are the ones who don’t need to ask questions or find answers. Yet I am blessed too, for daring the journey. For daring to ask why. And for sticking around long enough to find an answer. I always believed I would. When Spirit first entered my life, I taped a quote on my desk where I would always see it: Seek and thee shall find.
It is my hope someday to share my story with a wider audience. I can see myself now, shouting from the rooftops – The wound is a gateway! Betrayal is Sacred when the Heart can encompass the whole!
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